a Wednesday morning

It's a lovely Wednesday morning :) spent the morning with my mommy and daddy at the park. They are healthy people, so while they were jogging, I'm playing with the swing :* 

Feel the morning breeze, breath in the morning air, surrounded by greeneries. I put on my earphones , and start playing some songs. The love songs in my playlist that I replayed for a thousand times, the songs that made me feel much better after listening to them, the songs that described how i felt. Yes, the same old love songs by Taylor Swift, but it doesn't sound the same anymore. 

As I was looking around , observing, I saw an old man doing chin ups. To be frank, I was really surprised by this old man. He's in his late sixties I suppose, yet he's still strong. His muscles were firm despite of his dry and skeletal arms. He looked healthy. After doing a few times of chin ups, he stopped and rested on the bench. I can tell that he was tired, but he didnt give up. Once again, he stood up and attempt to do chin ups. 

I guess I've learnt something new today D E T E R M I N A T I O N.

We shouldn't give up on life so easily. Everything happens for a reason :) 

Months had passed, things have changed. The love that we used to have towards each other, silently faded. Those wonderful scene that occurs in fairy tales, I thought I could experience it but it's gone. Today, my life begins. I shall remove everything, and keep it safely in a small area in my mind, conceal it, lock it with a password that even me myself don't know. The sleepless nights are no longer hunting me anymore, those tears that I've shed.. Yes, all of them are not bugging me anymore, instead dreams of rainbows and colorful unicorns appear. As I close my eyes, I can instantly fall into blissful repose because now, I do not have to consider so much. I now shall live my own life and forget those moments that I once truly loved. Life goes on no matter what it is. God has plans for me. 

There is something called , Friendship.

Had a date with my girl , LING XIN HUI .

Casual look :) * the background is soooo greeny * 

Had brunch together at Starbucks :) well, it's not really a brunch because we just had a drink and shared a piece of Tiramisu cake .

We watched Rise of the Guardian , which is an amazing movie and it''s much much more better than we expected. Frankly, we kinda underestimated the awesomeness of this movie since it's just a 'cartoon' for 'kids' LOL, but it turned out to be a very meaningful movie.

Both of us were mesmerized by the charisma of this hot dude in the movie, Jack Frost ( voiced by Chris Pine )

We went for shopping after the movie, of course. We walked the whole Leisure Mall again and again and again until our legs were aching and tired. It was such a coincidence to meet Dean-nii and Amanda there :)
Credits to photographer of da day - Xin Hui.

Then, we went to have lunch at a Korean Restaurant, which i don't remember what it's called. The Rice Cake was delicious yet a little spicy, and the egg roll thing was eggy? HAHA, the food was nice :)

Thennnn, this is the boring part. While waiting for my daddy's arrival, we went shopping again. Miss Ling was trying to find a pencil box, so we walked around to search for a suitable pencil case for her. About an hour later, we gave up and chilled at Baskin Robbins, both of us just shared one scoop of Raspberry Cheese Louise. Later on, we went to Old Town White Coffee to have french fries, *kids* we figured that we haven't drink enough water today and we were very thirsty, so we ordered a cup of drinking water as well :)
Well, time flies when you're having fun. My dad came at 7.15pm, and we left. It's just a normal girls-day-out but we had loads of fun time. We spent time stalking people, gossip, thinking what to buy, snapping pictures and sharing stories. This is what best friends do.

Friends are so important for me, how can I live without them? There's people out there who dislike me, hate me, thinks that i'm annoying or whatever, but all of those craps seemed to vanish when I'm with my friends. It doesn't mean anything to me anymore if they are here beside me, be there for me, make me laugh until tears roll down on my cheeks, and made my life colourful. I love you people.

I have never hoped to be fully trusted from you guys, or force you guys to really like my existence because I know i have my own issues and a little annoying sometimes. What I really wished for is an everlasting friendship from you people . Good Night ! (:

Justice is just a word

50 random facts about me - FIFTH. I always complain. 


Kelly and Melvin have been asking me to keep my blog updated for weeeeeks, and today I finally had the urge to blog again. For the past few months, too many things had happened, but I just didn't have the mood to blog about them.

YESYES, I often complain about how my life sucks, how I admire others life, how unfortunate I am to be me blablabla ...

But, Melvin told me something, that really changed my mind. At least, I have a wonderful family, I have a brain that functions well, and most importantly, I have people who care about me a lot. <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
It's wonderful to learn new things, and these months, I've learnt that Justice is just a word , it seems like it exists, but sadly NO. In this world, Money is our new god, there is no more fair or unfair, those who has the power gets to control this world. Not to mention that I'm really pissed off my those people that thinks with money, they can buy anything ,but if I'm rich, I think I'll do the same thing. The fact is, most of the people will think that spending money to purchase a luxurious car or branded handbags which are extremely expensive are ridiculous, but tell me, if you are a millionaire ,will you do the same thing? Once you're rich, the people your hang out with are different, the things you do will change and your mindset will eventually change too.
Im pissed , but I must learn to control myself , because it's none of my concern. I was never my business and it will never be my business. So, I pretend I didn't see anything, I pretend I didnt hear anything , and what i've said in this post, I pretend that I didn't say anything :P

No offense ,I'm just expressing what I really feel right now (:

Stay tuned for more :D 

Jealousy , is this how we spell it?

I'll be here, girl I swear.

This really does sound sweet. That moment when your partner said this to you,  your mind is all white and all of a sudden it's blank, and you will just smile like a 3 year old kid, cling to him as tight as you can. You don't have to say anything, your actions showed how much you've trusted his words.

All these months, I've learnt that people only promise what they can do at the moment, not the rest of their lives. ' I won't ever do things that you don't want me to ' Yes, boys normally say this to girls. And  yes, for a period, they won't do what you don't want them to do. But , not for long. Some may be a week, a month , probably a year, but nor forever. Don't be shocked or surprised if one day you read his messages or chats, you find him sweet chatting with another person, as if they've replaced you. Well well, you have to accept, none of the humans in this world can keep their promise forever. You just have to learn when to trust them, and when to start suspecting them. But , it's always the best to don't trust anyone.

JEALOUSY is powerful. It makes you suffer, it makes your life go black and while , it makes your life miserable. It's normal to be jealous , it's one of the way for us to improve ourselves. But I simply can't bear with it anymore. I want to take action, but I don't know how. It's like you're in front of your door, you want to move one step forward to get out of your house, but something is stopping you from doing that. What else I can do? Lock myself in my room, listening to songs, that's it, another day has passed, im still in my room, the anger , sad, jealous all mashed up inside my body. Until the next day, the sun rose, but inside myself, it's always so dark so cold.

All those conversations are my little secrets . Although the happiness didn't last for long, but all these  months , the happiness I had, is more than enough.

50 Random facts about me . 4th - I can't keep promises that I've made. Especially promises to myself. HEH, couldn't believe that I'm still stuck on fact number four :P HAHAH, can't imagine how long I didn't update my blog .___. How lazy am I :3

The second day of May <3 Lots of things had happened last month. As everyone know, I have a weird character . I tend to think too much, which I assume that I can foresee things. Being a fortune teller can be an option for me in the future , hehehe. I always mood swing, I can be happy and sad and angry at the same time, scary ? Hahahha. If i'm being emo, I can relate everything together and complain how miserable my life is, which is why i'm good in writing essays as I can relate things together even though it isn't freaking related to each other .___.

Urgh, since I've chosen my path, I must walk till the end of it. I consider my life as a screwed up life now, because I really screwed up my life , LOL. Even though my life is screwed, but I still need to walk till the end *do I have an option?* lol NOW, being optimist and put hope even though it's hopeless is my only way to live on <3 HEHS, I'm really thankful of those who inspired me to be optimist, because being optimist and positive is a very hard task for me with my shit character :/

I still believe that everything that happened in my life has its own purpose. God has arranged everything for me, so I'm not worried about it.

You're officially 15 !

50 Random facts about me #3rd. I drink COFFEE. I find this  cool because most of my friend thinks that coffee tastes weird. To be honest, I love coffee =3 PEOPLE, it's 4th of March today, to my dearest Ling Xin Hui, Happy Birthday Dear, enjoy your sweeeeeeeeeet fifteen ! and of course, I'll make ur 15 year old life even sweeter , * I know that you can't live without me* :P

We went to the Target A seminar at University Malaya today. Well, it was not as interesting as expected, but the Science tutor was max funny , LOL. The food there wasn't really delicious, my appetite was even worse after I Ah Chao told me that disgusting story :S So I just ate a few bites then I leave the food on the table. URGH, having Geo tomorrow , and I haven't even finish studying yet. Let's see how much I'll get for Geo this time . :D

I was planning to take more pictures today, but I don't have the mood to snap so many. So here it is , the one and only picture :P

WAHAHAH, he insisted to snap one together when he found out that i'm secretly trying to snap a picture of him :P